you hurt me once, you hurt me twice

yes, you have hurt me :(

no, you haven't just hurt me once or twice...it has been a billion times (at least that's what it feels like) yet every time i come running after you and every time i get deceived and the cycle repeats itself.

But, now it's time for me to take control of what is happening.  i don't want to play games anymore.. those who end up playing games always end up like Chuck and Blair, they all hit rock bottom, nobody wants that do they?

so..

i give up.  i'm not the type to play games so you win

farewell :)

p.s. enjoy your victory, you don't need to save me some champagne

hidden messages in life

fate.  i've been avoiding what god (or fate or karma or whatever you believe in ) has been telling me all along...ever since i started high school and met some people.  S/He gave me so many warnings and signals to stay away but i have forced myself to blindfold my heart's eyes and forgive and forget.  Until this day, i have kept myself blindfolded by some magical force, i was too naive to notice, people kept telling me yet i ignored them. until this day, i have realised what has been going on...  Finally, i have the courage to remove the blindfold and reveal my heart and eyes to the painful truth in front of me.  i will not reveal what has been happening or what has happened today to keep it anonymous.

we all want to deny the fact that our mums are always right and i have been denying that.  but now, i can only agree with that statement.  no matter how hard you try to deny it, they are always right.  their advice, their experience, their knowledge, it's hard to say they're wrong. i know i probably sound like a mummy's daughter or whatever you want to call it but she's been my rock, the force behind keeping me alive, healthy and happy, without her, i think i wouldn't be able to survive this bump.

you may be able to ignore the signs and messages but eventually, fate will slam into you like a bus.

Last Of Everything

Finally, it's going to be the last week of term 3!!!  but just about everyone is dreading Friday, the last day of term 3. Why? because there is a program that runs from period 2 to 4 (which is about 3hrs ) about believing in yourself, looking at the poor, saying how lucky you are, making a change to your community and stuff like that.  It's going to be F-A-B-U-L-O-U-S!!!!  Just the things you look forward to on the last week of term righhhttt?

SIGHTINGS

SG and S  aren't going to be staying in the upper north shore as they head up to the northern hemisphere to cool down and relax in luxury hotels and stay in their very own apartment.  D doesn't seem to happy about SG and S heading upwards, she doesn't seem very willing to spend the days with just C and A...i wonder what that's all about....i'm sure it's nothing

keeping you updated with the lives of girls who live The Life

xoxo,
CC

hello again!

hello again!

a MASSIVE sorry for everyone since i haven't posted ANYTHING interesting lately or anything for that matter...  i have many excuses but i don't really think that you want to hear about them...of course, one of them is assignments.  stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid assignments!!!! they've just been piling on top of me!  luckily, it's nearly the end of term...so that's good.

BIG NEWS!!! for me anyway, i'm moving!!! closer to the elite school that i'm going to right now...at least i get to sleep in when i move in there..

nothing exciting has happened...apart from the fact that our soccer team is in the final!!!!! can you believe that??? i mean, no offence but our group is kind of the last team i would expect to be in the finals but miracles happen and we're in!!!  unfortunately, i wasn't the one that scored the goal...but i think it was SG and S....but it was awesome!  we won 2-0!  last time, we were going to win 4-0 but then, the opposite team got a goal..we were going to thrash them like Germany thrashed Australia (disappointing...obviously, soccer is not Australia strengths)..

since there is nothing else to say...i shall say farewell for now and hopefully, something remarkable shall happen...maybe i'll post some random stories or quotes or whatever...

xoxo
CC

Starry Eyed

When i was three, i often watched my mum and dad put contact lenses into their eyes.  Of course, curiosity killed the cat and i decided to try it out myself.  unfortunately, i did not see betteer throught mine but it made me starry eyed; it started like this.


I was bored so i was rolling around on the fluffy floor of the living room when i spotted something glittering in the corner.  I crawled over and found a sparkling star sequin.  I started to wonder what i should do with it.  Should i glue it onto a card for my mum? Or should i just leave it there like i never saw it? 


At that time, i was obsessed with looking, acting and talking like an adult.  I wanted to do 'adult-y' things.  Each morning, my mum and dad would putcontact lenses in their eyes.  Eacn night they would take them off.  I decided that it was a very mature and 'adult-y'  thing to do.  Unstead of clean contact lenses being poked into my eye, it was the dirty, spiky star sequin  i found buried amongst the strands of soft woollen carpet.


I carefully imitated my mum'sactions as best as i could without a mirror.  I blinked a few times.  Everything was fine...until i looked a round.  The spikes startedto prod at my eyeball and my eyes started tearing up so i raced to the bathroom to check out my battered eyeball.  I opened my eyes really big and couldn't find the star!  I looked until the mirror went hazy with my breath.  Finally, i found it, hidden under a fold of tissue.  I tried and tried to take it out without damaging my eye but it still wouldn't come out!


I ran to my dad and cried with despair "Dad!!! Something went into my eye and it's REALLY sharp! Help me get it out!!!" He opened myeye cautiously and blew into and said "Oh my! How did that get in there?" Carefully, he took the culprit out from under the fold of tissue.  It was quite a large object to put in one's eye, especially at the age of three.


From that day on, I have been very careful about the curious cat inside me.  I only unleashed it when it's scratching my insides sore because it wants to come out.  Ever since then, I haven't been starry eyed.

Let me be the first, to wish you the worst...

hey people!

I'm surprised that all has been quite quiet in the Upper North Shore.  Usually, there's always some hidden catashtrophe under those innocent faces.  Of course, there was a mini disaster that went by on the 19th of August. 

DISASTER ON THE 19TH OF AUGUST

SG, D, A and C were sitting and chatting innocently when a group of other girls suddenly came down on them.  In the lead was T and KL.  T looked the part of the mean popular girl with the slick blond ponytail, large dark sunglasses and of course the mile long smooth legs.  Immediately, she questioned and threatened them, saying she was a boxing champion!!  Of course SG, D, A and C were cowering but C lost her temper and fired questions back at T.  SG was quite surprised at the fact that C 'lost it', C was usually the one who would sit back and just wish that a hole in the ground would just swallow her up right there and then.  Fortunately N knew T and saved their arses. 

SIGHTINGS

SG and S mysteriously disappeared into the library.  I wonder what for? C and SG stuck on a carriage full of smelly normo boys.  How sad! Deodorant much? 

Anyway, not much has happened these days.  If something fun or interesting happens, i'll be the first to tell you all. Watching you all like a hawk!

xoxo,
CC

It's just the beginning...

Hello!
This is just another blog about another girl living in another cruel and twisted world.  Of course, i  wish that i was born as one of those people who have it all: the money, the mansions, the cars, the fame and the clothes but unfortunately, i have been born as a normal girl who lives in one of the suburbs of the oh-so-glamourous city, Sydney, Australia (down under). 

Welcome to the Upper North Shore where my friends and i sleep, play, talk and go to school. We all live in apartments/houses/townhouses with our own bedrooms, bathrooms and our own mobile phones! We're smart, funny and of course pretty :) It's a normal life but someone's got to live it.

 SIGHTINGS

SG and S have a victory run around the soccer field after kicking an awesome goal making the score 2 all.  SG, S, D, A and C trying to find a blog that works at school that isn't in anyway cheesy. SG, S and C complaining about how the lollies they bought at Westfield were a MASSIVE rip-off.

THE GIRL WHO HAS WRITTEN THESE WORDS

Of course, you're probably wondering who has written all these words.  I can tell you one thing, i'm from an elite high school who has been in the top 5 best schools in NSW (not that i contributed to it) and of course i am fussing over my hair, face and body.

I'll be watching all of us very closely.  I can just feel it in my bones that the remaining of the year 2010 will be a wild and wicked one.

xoxo,
CC